40 Days Prayer & Fast - Day 10

Ezra 8:22-23
I was ashamed to ask the king for soldiers and horsemen to protect us from enemies on the road, because we had told the king, "The gracious hand of our God is on everyone who looks to him, but his great anger is against all who forsake him." So we fasted and petitioned our God about this, and he answered our prayer.

Nehemiah 1:3-4
They said to me, "Those who survived the exile and are back in the province are in great trouble and disgrace. The wall of Jerusalem is broken down, and its gates have been burned with fire." When I heard these things, I sat down and wept. For some days I mourned and fasted and prayed before the God of heaven.

Daniel 9:2-3
in the first year of his reign, I, Daniel, understood from the Scriptures, according to the word of the LORD given to Jeremiah the prophet, that the desolation of Jerusalem would last seventy years. So I turned to the Lord God and pleaded with him in prayer and petition, in fasting, and in sackcloth and ashes.

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Since the Lord convicted my heart of unbelief during the G12 Conference, I decided to go into a season of 40 Days Prayer & Fast (12 hours a day, from 6am to 6pm) for two reasons:

1. A transformation of my heart to believe God again that He can use me
I must admit for two years, I have lost the alignment and heart in believing God in the vision, for the 12, 144 and the multitudes. Disappointments, failures and not seeing any fruits the past two years have caused me to lose that belief that God can use me. I need a change of heart.

2. Believing God for breakthroughs in the lives of my disciples
It has been heart wrenching seeing some of my disciples struggling in the same old cycle of sin and defeatedness. I tried all my human ways (advice, encouragements, challenging..etc), but there just isn't any breakthrough. I've come to a point of realization that only God can bring the change. Thus I decide to fast and pray for my disciples - believing God for a breakthrough in every single one of their lives in these 40 days. Even if they do nothing about it, I am believing God to do something about it that will change their lives.

Today is Day 10 of 40 Days of Prayer & Fast. Has it been easy? NO... Definitely not easy!

But I am channeling that physical hunger to desperate urgency in pray and petition to the Lord. I have witnessed many changes happening since I started...

1. A new zeal, thirst, understanding and revelation on the Word (I am reading the Word more than ever before these days)

2. I can feel a difference in my prayer life. Definitely more empowered, knowing that the power comes from the Lord and not my own words and wisdom.

3. Am seeing breakthrough in some of my disciples lives as they come forth to share certain deep struggles they faced. Praise the Lord!

I do not share this to boast of what I am embarking on.. but to seek your partnership in prayer and accountability. It means and encourages me a lot to have the spiritual family's encouragement and support on this journey. =D