DONT ASUME YOU ARE BOOKING OUT RECRUIT!!!!!!

hello family haha maybe you all do not know but that is my officer's favourite line... This week has been one of the most tiring week I ever had since entering army.. I had a 16km route march IPPT, SOC and Battle Assualt Course over this whole week... to make matters worse, my knees and ankles were quite cui already from the previous week of training haha I dont know la but maybe my body takes a longer time to recover compared to my other friends haha

But what Jasper says about drawing near to God instead of drifting away from him is really true =) Generally my platoon is really strong...all of them have at least 4 pecs and are all very garang haha my platoon had a 95% Ippt Pass and 77% silver.... of which I am one of the 3 who didnt get a silver.... (half a pull up more zzzzz) anyways back to my point haha being less physically fit than my platoon mates really put me in a situation where I learn not to depend on my own strength but really tapping on the faithfulness of God =)

The Night before my Ippt, I prayed to God to help me pass CONFIDENTLY for the test. My SBJ and shuttle run is really quite jia lat haha I cant seem to jump far hahah and as for the shuttle run, I keep droping the blocks =.=" on the day of IPPT, I managed to clear the stations confidently but there was sense of pride seeping in through... I wanted more and more... I wanted to show everyone that I was equally capable of getting a silver award....and that was when God pointed out to me that I left him out of my endeavour to strife for glory.... it was all about me and not about his faithfulness and grace

Naturally I was disappointed with my perfermance but it struck me to wonder that if God allowed me to get that half more pull up, would I be 100% dependent on him for everything I did or will do ? would I be approaching my section mates and buddy to pray for me like crazy few days before any ippt ?

Ask and it shall be given unto you
I asked for a confident pass and God gave it me =)
Seek and you shall find.
I wanted a silver award for the wrong reason and God taught me not to be complacent. Sometimes you need to seek through disappointments to find the real victory

All in all, BMT has brought my relationship with God to a higher level. With more challenges and less time to spend with him, you end up learning to depend and appreciate him in a whole new way hahah like praying during route marches..... praying with your buddy at night.... doing quiet time at 5 30am when you have to fall in at 5 40am hahah

Come Holy Spirit...

Hello guys, back to blog...

As you all know, I was not able to book out last week due to Field Camp and boy that 6 days in the Jungle is sure a pain!! But I really thank God that it's fnally over.

Some people say that it is very easy to lose your Faith in the army because of the harsh and the 'not so Churchy' environment and people you will meet in the camp. As for me, the past few weeks in army have made me Grow both Physically (The half left Knock it down will really work those Mucles I tell you) , Mentally (If you cannot take the punishment from your commanders like a man, You'll proberly have a mental breakdown) but also Spiritually.

God have been very faithful to me in camp, my section have escape many many punishments over this few weeks and God is always trying to show me in many different ways that He is with me in camp all this while.

Since my last book in, I was really fearful of my 12km route march and field camp. Fearful that i won;t be able to take the long 6 days in the jungle. I remembered praying to God that night to pull me through this period and the song Come Holy Spirit (not the City Harvest version but the 1986 version) just filled my mind and every morning i will be singing that song as my morning prayer.

"Come Holy Spirit, Fall Afresh On Me. Fill Me With Your Power, Satisfiy My Needs. Only You Can Make Me Whole, Give Me Strength To Make Me Grow. Come Holy Spirit, Fall Afresh On Me"

Yes, God has satisfied all my needs in the jungle, gave me the strength to finish my field camp and 12km route march. (I remember I almost died for my 8km route march, but this time it's only after the 10km march that i started to feel the pains).

So Guys, a worship song is nothing but a nice tune and words, unless you really make it a deep, sincere, heartfelt prayer to God. And God really take our deep, sincere, heartfelt prayer very seriously.

Kitkat Bro


P.S. I just bought the planetshakers latest Album "All For Love" and you won't believe what Track 1o is. Enjoy the song..

i may be struck down but i am NOT DESTROY!

Brothers, sharing what the Lord has spoken to me.. Give thanks for all your encouragement and may i be a blessing to you by being a "jonathan" in your lives. Enjoy reading.. =)

Before i prepare myself for another exciting sunday service, i always asked myself if i can still remember what was been preached without any aid from any notes or reference. This is to really test myself if i really captured what God is trying to speak to me by heart and not memory. Because if you capture it in your heart, you not only will not forget but also apply it too! "Resurrection Power!!" came into my mind.. and yes, that's what i captured in my heart..

There are so many things happening that i can hardly take a break of not thinking and seeking help for God to speak to me in wisdom and direction. Things too overwhelming that i really feel like dying, stop thinking and don't be bothered! But i can't!!! i know i cannot and simply i just cannot!! Because God knows me and i know God. I do not want to be rich bcoz being poor will i have Jesus always in my mind.. I do not want to be wise in knowledge bcoz it may cause me to die my feelings for God.. i do not want to live long life without meaning and purpose in life bcoz i want you Lord..

Things happening in ministry.. boys not coming, one want to leave, some i know they are struggling in sins.. Things in NTU, people may be unsure about why they need to be in the open cell, leaving or even not coming at all.. Things in family, howcome i just cannot get my parents' approval after working so hard!! These are matters that always struck me down, make me helpless..

For ministry, i scare not bcoz my number in cell or cell attendance decreases but i may become selfish and lose the heart for the lost. For NTU, i scare not bcoz why people is not committed but we leaders cannot be clear of sight what God wants us to do. For famly, i scare not bcoz not being accepted nor approved by my parents but when can my whole family come into salvation.. No matter what, i am NOT DESTROYED!! bcoz i have JESUS!! i have the resurrection power through Him! =)

John 10:17-18
"The reason my Father loves me is that i lay down my life-only to take it up again. No one takes it from me, but i lay it down of my own accord. I have the authority to lay it down and authority to take it up again. This command i received from my Father."

Prayer:
Father, i am already dying to my self and my own desire. Really tired and cannot make it already. Only You can make me whole. So please give me strength to move and to keep on giving. i am not superman i know. But unless a kernel of wheat dies, it shall only remain as a seed. i want to be fruitful for You! not bcoz of numbers You send me to lead and change but bcoz You will use me to glorify and testify that You truly are the bread of life! i choose to lay down my life for You so that You may lift me up together with You. God, You're my resurrection power!!

AMEN!!

The Victory over the evil of the world

Hey all.... Good Morning.. its VaZe here....

i wanna share with u a new devotion i have here... Its a powerful one, i assure u... These scriptures which i gonna share with u ppl really pulled me out of the mud when i hit the lowest points of my life.... I wanna this to be a great encouragement to u ppl when u are facing the downs of ur lives....

Wat are some of the downs of my life:
1. Results nt going ur way... Plenty of hardwork and input, yet, small results. U feel unfair as u think to urself why the earth is this happening? Its nt like i never do anything wat!!

2. People giving u a lot of discouragment - Persecutions from "friends" who mock ur belief, question and insult the faith, parents who dun understand the things u're going thru and blast u with a lot of nagging...

3. U dun seem to be able to rise up to fight the strongholds (sin and temptations). There is a sense of dissapointment, failure and the CMI (cannot make it, cannot overcome it) attitude

Wat the scriptures says:

#1 (From the life of David, the very moment when he challenged Goliath), 1 Sam 17:35:
David said to Goliath, "You have come against me with sword and spear and javelin, but I come against you in the name of the Lord Almighty, the God of the armies of Israel, whom u have defied. This day the Lord will hand u over to me, and I'll strike u down and cut off your head

One of the anchor verses of my life.... Versatile and powerful.... I quote this scripture practically everytime someone tries to shoot down my faith by insulting my faith and when the devil tries to tempt me with any crap and nonsense.... These people and the devil come against me with their spears, javelins and swords, all the physical things that they throw at me... Be it the temptation of the lust of the eye when a skimpy-dressed girl walks by, or the vulgarities hurled, and the jeering by people at my faith.... Yet, i counter all these physical attacks when I apply this Scripture.

I COME AGAINST ALL OF YOU IN THE NAME OF THE LORD GOD ALIMGHTY, WHOSE RIGHT ARM WORKS JUSTICE FOR HIM, WHO WIELD THE IRON SCEPTER OF JUDGMENT, WHOSE WORDS PIERCES THROUGH EVERY DIVIDING SOUL AND SPIRIT, JOINTS AND MARROW.... SO NOW, THE LORD IS GONNA LIFT ME UP AGAINST THIS TEMPTATIONS AND INSULTS, AND IN HIS NAME I WILL EXTERMINATE ALL THESE FALSE ARGUMENTS THAT TRIES TO SET ITSELF UP AGAINST ME AND THE LORD!!

yup!!! When u start to quote scriptures to fight back the crap thrown to u by the devil, its very effective as the words from the scriptures are the very Holy words of God, spoken by Him, imbued with His Spirit. From Ephesians 6, the word of God is the sword of the Spirit, the one hit KO weapon much stronger than the nuclear missile or hydrogen bomb... So start spiritual warfare with power drawn from His word!!!

Voice of Truth Part II

Hey all, i know its been very long since i last blog, was busy studying for prelims in 2 weeks time....

Ok, continuing with the Voice of Truth, we read from 1Kings 19:11-14 that God send a powerful wind before him to shatter the rocks (otherwise known as a hurricane), followed by an earthquake then fire....

As i sought the Lord wat's this is all about, i had a revelation and insight into the matter....

First, this hurricane, earthquake and fire are destructive elements that can easily take the life of any man away.... This clearly proves the supreme holiness of the Lord, a holiness that comes with reverence and judgment...

From Hebrews 12: (v18) You have not come to a mountain that can be touched and that is burning with fire; to darkness, gloom and storm; (v19) to a trumpet blast or to such a voice speaking words that those who heard it begged that no further word be spoken to them, (v20) because they could not bear what was commanded: "If even an animal touches the mountain, it must be stoned." (v21) The sight was so terrifying that Moses said, "I am trembling with fear."

Second, these 3 elements can also represent the storms of our lives.... Notice that after the 3 elements, God came to Elijah in a gentle whisper... This is so in line with our daily lives, where the "hurricanes, fire and earthquakes" which are our daily life and problems seems to draw our attention away. Yet Elijah knew these things were nt the voice of God until the gentle whisper came.

In fact, sometimes when we really wanna seek the Lord, we may encounter these fires, hurricanes and earthquakes that act as a test and obstacle ordained by God to test the integrity or substance of our walk... Yet, with the obstacles in place, God never fails to come to us in the end to help us and to teach us. This is the same as Job, where everything is taken from him to test him, and in the end God spoke to Job and affirmed his actions and faith, thus rewarding him with so much more in return.

In conclusion, I admit that it is really difficult to tune our ears to hear the gentle whisper of God in the midst of our busy lives... Yet, when we are convicted and really make an effort to seek Him, our walk with Him will grow exponentially, and after some time, we will find it much easier to integrate God into our daily lives, and have a much larger capacity to deal with the sticky situations of our lives without feeling stretched out and torn....